The Weight

I have been a mother for almost 2 years now and what I know for sure, is motherhood is incredibly humbling.

Before having children, I had the idea in my head that once I became a mother, I could do it all. I would have the babies, whip myself back into shape, complete the farm chores, still work my normal 9-5 job (40 hours/week), cook all the food from scratch, homeschool my children and still date my husband. My children would be well behaved, they’d eat healthy food and be good sleepers and helpers on the farm. I really thought I could handle it and things might be difficult from time to time but, for the most part, life would be pie.

Turns out, it’s just not that easy. Hannah has been a difficult sleeper since the day she was born. She decides what she will and won’t and what she finds delicious one day revolts her the next. If she’s not in the right mood, she’ll scowl at people who smile at her and her favorite word in the whole world is “no.” All I can definitely say is, that girl LOVES doing chores on the farm. My saving grace! 🤣

So this, right here, is my blanket apology to any mother who I ever placed any judgement against. Being a mother is hard and times have changed. Gone are the days of utilizing your village to make it from one day to another. I’m honestly not sure there has ever been a time when we’ve been so isolated from one another, with complete access to community at our fingertips. We need each other. We need compassionate, thoughtful, loving, kind, supportive and humble friends.

Cuz’ raising these little people is a big responsibility with a big weight.

But BOY is it worth it.